Day 26

Hi everyone,

I know it has been ages since I wrote but I have been sick and so much has happened in the last 2 weeks.

Let me break it down for you:

The doctors think I have polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS). This syndrome causes a few health problems in women which include not only weight gain but the inability to lose the weight. Women with PCOS have a higher chance of getting diabetes, heart disease and cancer.

I have been frustrated for so long because there were times that I seriously tried to lose weight, even though some people didn't think so and no matter how hard I tried nothing was happening. Eventually I would get fed up and quit, which I know was not the best route but hey I'm only human. Even though it was hard to hear all the things that are potentially wrong with me, I am happy that I know and most important I know how to fix it. I know it will be an uphill battle that will probably last my whole life.

I now know I have to make significant life changes. It is scarry because sometimes I do not think I will be strong enough to endure all that will surely come my way. The light I see through my fears is the support I am getting from my family, friends and my co-workers. I don't think I will survive if everyone (and you know who you are) were not in my life.

Today I was tested for Diabetes, and a whole slew of other things. I have to now wait patiently till January 14th when I meet with my Endocronologist to get the results (Pray for good news!!!).

Christmas is almost near and remember to keep your loved one close, life is so precious and unfortunately so short. Cherish every moment you can and live each day to it's fullest!!

Eileen (Bean-that's for you Mel)