Day Thirty Eight

So today is the first day after the holiday rush and as much as I would love to say I was an angel over the holidays - I wasn't.

There were so many good things too eat, and coupled with being sad because I am single (and everyone else isn't), let's just say I had no chance.

I am still trying to come to realization of what will work for me and how I will accomplish my goal. Sometimes I wish it was just a little easier. I am not asking for it to be handed to me, just to make it a little easier.

Day 30

Wow, it has been a month already!

Sadly I have to report that I have not had much progress, the good thing is that I have not given up and I am very optimistic for the new year.

After I start my treatment for PCOS, I am hoping that I will start seeing some results. I am getting this feeling like everything is begining to fall into place. It feels so good!!

Day Twenty Eight

Today there was a family gathering at my mom's house and therer were so many goooood things to eat. My mouth was watering when I saw the rice pudding, creme caramel, it was so hard to resist. My sister made 14 different kinds of cookies.

Ok time to be real, I cheated, but not so bad. I had one of the peanut chocolate rice krispies thing and a small piece of creme caramel. I also had some jello but that is not too bad for you.

Christmas is going to be hell!!!!

Day 26

Hi everyone,

I know it has been ages since I wrote but I have been sick and so much has happened in the last 2 weeks.

Let me break it down for you:

The doctors think I have polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS). This syndrome causes a few health problems in women which include not only weight gain but the inability to lose the weight. Women with PCOS have a higher chance of getting diabetes, heart disease and cancer.

I have been frustrated for so long because there were times that I seriously tried to lose weight, even though some people didn't think so and no matter how hard I tried nothing was happening. Eventually I would get fed up and quit, which I know was not the best route but hey I'm only human. Even though it was hard to hear all the things that are potentially wrong with me, I am happy that I know and most important I know how to fix it. I know it will be an uphill battle that will probably last my whole life.

I now know I have to make significant life changes. It is scarry because sometimes I do not think I will be strong enough to endure all that will surely come my way. The light I see through my fears is the support I am getting from my family, friends and my co-workers. I don't think I will survive if everyone (and you know who you are) were not in my life.

Today I was tested for Diabetes, and a whole slew of other things. I have to now wait patiently till January 14th when I meet with my Endocronologist to get the results (Pray for good news!!!).

Christmas is almost near and remember to keep your loved one close, life is so precious and unfortunately so short. Cherish every moment you can and live each day to it's fullest!!

Eileen (Bean-that's for you Mel)

Day Twelve

Hi everyone,

First let me start by giving you the answer to the question from Day Ten

The answer is...

B Wendy's Chicken BLT Salad

Wendy's Chicken BLT Salad has 13 grams of saturated fat and 1480 mg of sodium. It also has 46 grams of total fat and 680 calories. There is nothing that is heart-healthy about this salad.

The ten piece McDonald's Chicken McNuggets has five grams of saturated fat and 1120 mg of sodium. It has 24 grams of total fat and 420 calories.

Keep that in mind just because it is a salad does not make it the healthier option.

I will have another quiz for you tomorrow stay tuned!!!

Day Ten

Hello everyone,

Tonight I some McDonald's :(

I did opt for the healthier items (if there is such a thing at McDonalds). It got me thinking??

I have a little quiz!!!

Which fast food item has more saturated fat and sodium?

A: McDonald’s ten piece Chicken McNuggets
B: Wendy’s Chicken BLT Salad

Don't google it, I will give you the answer tomorrow!

Day Nine

Hey everybody!!

I am feeling sick, cannot shake this cold. I just want to share an interesting fact with you.

Eating a regular poutine is the equivalent of eating a pound of butter.

Think about that the next time you are ordering one!!!

Day Eight

Hi to all my friends and family and anyone else who is reading this!!!

I have not written for a few days but I am back now.

First thing I want to mention is that I will hopefully be speaking to a dietician soon and I am hoping that she can set me on the right track. I have to fill out a paper and "honestly" list everything I eat for the next four days. HMMM when you start listing everything you eat, it gets SCARRRY.

I am amazed at how much calories, fat and sodium goes into my body. It's not worth it anymore, for those few minutes that you feel satisfied, you are losing sooo much.

Today I did pretty well, I had 2 packages of oatmeal for breakfast (one regular and one Maple Brown sugar). I had pasta that was cooked with a little bit of olive oil and soya sauce. I had a bottle and half of water with one package of crystal light singles and a can of diet coke. I also had about 3/4 of a bag of light popcorn.

For supper, I made a steak, I cooked with a tbsp of olive oil and stirfried green peppers and mushrooms. I have not drank any soda tonight which is a BIG step for me, since I used to drink about a liter of diet soda every night. I may still have a cup before the night is over... I won't lie

Well have a good night and leave me comments, it helps to know people are reading!!

Day Three - Afternoon

I'm so dying to have another soda, a bag of chips or some chocolate. This is so so so hard!!

Day 3 - Lunch

So I have decided to document my successes and failures as they come and today during Lunch, I had one of each.

At my work there was a fundraiser going on and they were selling a pannini lunch. I opted for the sandwich with no mayo (good) and unfortunately I took a dessert (bad) and a diet pepsi (I am putting bad because I did not drink my bottle of water yet and I am drinking my diet pepsi).

However, I was eating my sandwich looking at that baklava, dripping with honey and I said NO, if I start to give in so early I will fail this journey before I even start. I gave my dessert to a co-worker. It was hard for me to see him take a bite and close his eyes as he nodded to the delicious taste. But I do feel good that I had the will to give it to him and resist that temptation.

Day Two

Today was the first day of my diet and it was not easy. Everywhere I turned there were temptations. I was walking home and saw the Mont-Royal Hot Dog restaurant sign and all I wanted was some Mexican pizza. I resisted!!

I also had to pick up the chocolates for my company's Christmas party, which was hard. Here I am, a huge choco-a-holic and I am sitting here at home with a ton of Lindt chocolate. I am resisting.

This is not easy, but I'm glad that I have the support of my friends and family!

My friend sent me a Chinese proverb that said "A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step". I am on that journey and this is my single step.

Day One

Hello World!!

I woke up this morning and it was like a light went off in my head. I am a 30 year old woman, and I am extremely overweight. Now is not the time to sugar coat things, I am not voluptious or chunky I AM FAT.

I have decided to change my life, I will start my diet tomorrow. So not to give up on this important and essential journey I have started this blog. I need your help, please don't let me give up.

I am 5 feet 6 inches and I weigh 295 pounds.

My goal is to lose 115 pounds (a whole other person), but more than that it is to become healthier.

See you tomorrow!!